Twilight Embrace

2007-01-10T02:20:00.000-08:00

Twilight Embrace

Well apparanetly I managed to get this back, I don't know why Blogger screwed up over the past few months that I couldn't access but I've lost track of all the interesting things that happened so far in my life, with the exception of a few...

Blogspot has split into 2, the old and the new. I don't know what the new one holds. I might not be able to have enough time to write down everything now because considering tim, I don't have that much to spend between work and luxury and the time to make another entry. If I'm going to keep this, I think I'll manage my entries in another site. It isn't exactly something like blogger but it has simplified works and more accessible friendly (I had to undergo lag ,waiting to get into this account)

That doesn't mean this will be useless though incase some of you want to read here, I'm just writing elsewhere then copy/paste the entries here at a later time.

See you agian, I hope.

Twilight Embrace

2006-09-11T09:20:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to my Dad!

Lol I'm pretty sure everyone can remember this day, especially since this was the same day the twin towers got whacked! TV Patrols pretty short on news right now I'm sure otherwise why would they bring this up over and over agian?

Now other surprising news, Joan says she's coming back to play and its been a long time since I heard from Arri also! Crap, it just happens I didnt use the pc on that day and the other! Well its good to hear from them! Also, Rhesty but she gotta job hunt tomorrow and boy did I made her go bananas with 'me and Lei' XD

Yup, she's still gullible but then agian you know scammers ;they're twice as stupid! They impersonate and pm you when the real person they're trying to impersonate is just infront of their victims! Their biggest msitake was trying to impersonate me, oh are they gonna feel sorry!

Well this may sound selfish but good luck with your lives people!

Twilight Embrace

2006-08-20T18:27:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday!!
Haha! Didn't expect an update this soon, did you!

Happy Birthday to my oldest sister who still works abroad in America for all of us! ^_^

Here's a Misua to you!

Oh, and I broke the record, got some pics to prove it....but somehow I don't feel like it's worth the trouble for nor sharing it atm. I should've listened to Bebe but I was already way too far to pull back so I had to finish it at least...even if I have to go through it alone in the end.

Rhesty...you're one lucky girl...

and I appreciate the gift, I'll keep it akways.

Big Day

2006-08-19T13:20:00.000-07:00

The Big day
Well this is something I should've done a week agoa ctually, problem was my sleeping was off AGIAN! Damn, I was doing
so well, was it the cold that messed up my sleeping clock? Now I'm a vampire -,..,-... agian

I'm gonna break that record Rhesty! and eventually Bebe will be mine too! I shall get rid of that smile! Nyahaha! ^,..,^

Yesterday night was Lola's big 80th birthday party, and boy does she ahve a handful of grand kids! =P

We went after Dad's work, just finished giving the workers, their salary and left at about 6pm. Unlike most birthday parties I went to, this b one had a different cake! It wasn't too sweet or chocolate flavored but it was delicious! O_O Pandan kaya? Well I also feel sorry for our next door celebrants (We were in some events hosting club which I forgot the name since it's been awhile we went there), they were hosting a wedding just outside...then rain came! All the tables got drenched, which means also all their food too! D:

Except for the table of the bride and groom, there's was the only one with a tent canopy ... and the beer (like as if thats needed out of the rain!)

As for our party, we hsoted it inside, most of my parents and yet-to-be-known relatives and uncles are mostly for their favor of the party. It was pretty much ok, none of that crappy, loud, bombastic fireworks effects , parlor games, magic tricks or whatever gimicks parties usually throw. Just usual Happy-birthday celebration with some nice reminisence, though that didn't stop the 3rd generation (or aka the kids) from having their own way of fun! ^_^

My only regret is the young 11-year old violinist. Ok sure there was some piercing killer notes that would leave my ears splitting. Let me tell you, Violins are not ever anything like pianos! But thats only part I don't like. What I'm kinda feel awkward is the first choice of the song played happens to be the same song used in....well.. funerals of heros in America! If you watched the anime: 'Steam Dectective', that song is there, it'susually best vocal with maybe trumpets and theme is of course, depressing and dramatic. Now picture that in violin.

Though I'm very impressed for this 11 year old to have such talent. We returned home on around 9pm. Still had sometime to RO a bit. Then afterwards, make this blog. I checked my YM, and I really miss some people there.

I hope Rhesty can come tomorrow and she cna play agian.....so I can shove it in her face when I break her record! Hahaha! Dewm!

Oh, I also tried making that enxt post for MA, sorry for the delay but I was only half finsihed, got caught up with a headache, I usually don;t get headaches at night unless...could it be my oh-so-fragrant and human-friendly katol is the one messing my head?!?! Anyway Kei, told me to take it easy, well I''m not really up fo the next half yet, the 2 new characters nay take awhile for me to write their personality..and yeah there's Mute!

Who's Mute? Haha! Read MA or die of curiosity! >:D

Oh and I requested Kei some drawings too! Hope you like 'em! I know I will whenever I dress up plushies! O.O

Nyt Nyt!

Twilight Embrace

2006-07-28T07:25:00.000-07:00

Darker days

Well from whats been happening this apst week, I got sick but I'm going to be ok now and by tomorrow I have to be at work. Eri is having problems rigth now, and she's being avoiding most of her friends for some reason thoughg I did try cheering her up with some stupidity since I can't work with her dilemma directly. Aside from that, well Rhesty is havin g problems on her own with her own big sister and family, even Lei is having trouble about. He's currently in our guild now trying to take Rhesty's place, though as I expected he won't well w/o her as I've seen some situations... =
Still he is a good leader, noble, bold...maybe a bit overconfident but hey, he's a Leo! (and I realize Virgos don't go well with Leos =O ) Rhesty should consider

I met also a new 'mommy' today, and I learn alot of 'new things' from her. It's kinda fun being a kid and act all cute even though I hold a knife =D
Hmm...I really should consider about MA's next post, my collaborator is probably getting impatient on my move. To tell you the truth I haven't though about it much, probably becuase WA is kinda in a depressing state. And of ocurse there's updating my blog, lol, which I just did! We'll thats just all for this month I guess. I do pray Rhesty and Eri will get better soon.

Twilight Embrace

2006-06-27T10:47:00.000-07:00

Outcast

Sad on last week's work, I wont be getting my pay due to a heartbrun and the wiorst part is it just happens to be the busiest day of them all! I'll need to make up for it somehow. But besides than that, at least me and my family were still able to get shopping done. Last Sunday though when I wasn't there, they forgot to get the umbrella in the mall! So when it rained, I had to get a shower fast. The water was veeeeery cold. Fortunately I think we cna get it back since it was placed
in the depository, probably in the lsot and found section by now.

Settign aside my expriences I wanna share on my iRL, Symm showed me this:

http://technology.inq7.net/infotech/infotech/view_article.php?article_id=5895

Now after you read that article, I begin to wonder; LU had already lost much of its service quality, but are they that willing to lose their morale? The toy convetion would be crap to knowing what the LU and its staffreally would be like, I already found the truth right there.

Disturbingly enough though not surprising, some of my friends who use these 3rd party programs actually support them as well though they despise them. I'm not sure if thats what their intent but if it was trying to bring as smile as one of them would, they certainly heading it in the wrong direction.

There sint any person I recognize anymore that doesnt use a 3rd aprty program. Some say its for a good cause; others claim they wont KS or loot but the fact is, gaming in RO for me will never be the same. I'm about the only person I know who has not resorted to botting, but since LU legalized them, does that mean my existance as a real living player is forbidden? Am I the only person left to actually log in, only to find walking people without any feelings? So the only way possible for anyone to have fun is to resort to being monotonous and mechanical way of things?

I guess if they legalize botting now, they may as well legalize Kill Stealing and looting too, because thats more of the lucrative means right? How about hacking? you can get lots of stuff too using that so I guess we should legalize that too! Oh while were at it, lets break every law in the RO game. Who cares about laws as long as they have fun right? LU isnt enforcing them now anyway and I dont ever see that they do or want to do it either as logn as they are comfy geting all the fat pesos with such a poor quality gaming.

While were at it, why dont we just murder each other in real life selling drugs huh? I dont know why or how it would come to that, but if botting is now legalzie, who knows what else can be! Fact is, the Filipinos today dont seem to really care who gets hurt in their way as long as they get what they want and just get rich. LU should get married with Gloria Arroyo because I really think these 2 wil be made for each other.

Oh and Happy Birthday to Eri/Kyrian even though...I hardly think she could hear me anymore.

Twilight Embrace

2006-06-14T18:00:00.000-07:00

Work and Relationships

No biggie here, I'm kinda lazy now to bother my Blog, got too many things too at mind.

I managed to to get to see Rhesty and everyone in HoF agian. I dont like to compare but for some reasons she seems to undertsand me more than even my old friends in the p.server. It was good to see myold friends and all, but I don't think they are like the ones I used to know back in SC, I guess its becuase they go to this Oasis boards and know each other well there, but its like a big lounge. Even a few close people I once knew started to go with them more often and easily mingled. When I see them going so well together, I feel like I'm not in the picture.

I learned also that cheering up or giving someone a sharing sad look isn't always the best solution. Comforting words are, a sign of things will get better is what I need.

Being in a p.server and all with no bots is kinda fun and relieving....for only a few moments. The old friends I knew are no longer recognizable to me. It's probably like another friend told me.

"Because you didnt go offline so much, its harder for you to relate to irl stuff... "

Yeah I can't blame them if they seem like strangers now, living their own loves outside the pc. At least they go out together, whislt I'm stuck elsewhere in Phillipines out of the Manila area. So close, yet so far..

Should it be time for me to grow up? I wonder...
I wish I could be a teenager agian.

I have a work now too, moved up fromtimekeeper into accountant, now it's not just people but construction materials too! It's gonna be a loooooooong day but it can't be helped, some co-workers of my dad are suspected of stealing materials. My day starts at 8:30 and..well it started! I'll be back by 3 pm, though the only thing I'm looking forward to is are the GSD episodes.

Twilight Embrace

2006-02-19T17:18:00.000-08:00

New Starlights, but only a few shine

Well I'm not a transcendant, I find little complaints living the old aco life agian but what bothers me unlike others is I can't help feel but being pressured by time, a.k.a level cramming. Old friends I knew don't seem to visit RO much anymore. Arriene, Jade, Kez, K5, Excel...and a whole number of people I depend on for number of good reasons beyond my help. Yeah, it's sad really depending myself on others when I should have realized I know I was going to be alone in the end, but I'll never regret the memories while it lasted. Thank you so much everyone, even though I was a pain at times.

Oh I will I cherish and wish for the day of an EB. Did we achieved our goal in Morin? Far from it, but I doubt it was over unlike SC. I have to confess, I do see Arriene's char at times but I have high doubts it's her anymore plus 'she' is avoiding me also.

And as old friends go, new ones come to pass. Joan's on her own wings now, leading her own RO and RL well enough in fact she seems to be starting a new chapter of her RO life.

On the journey to being a trans I met quite number of people. Many can befriend you, but once they start joining another (Magni) party, they forget all about that and just went for the reckless KS, as if the trans bots weren't bad enough either. Some know how hard it is to be a trans aco leveling, but they just don't care about that either.

I know prisons is free-for-all but doesn't it kind of feel like being betrayed this way? Goes to show what their true colors are. Still, despite this I have to push on, I inspired Joan to go to job 50 so why can't I swallow my own spirit? Besides, not to be a total brag or center to myself, but I have a number of people who look to me as an insipiration and they are helping me to get there too!

So here I go again, I hope I can see my baby online, she really helps eases the stress on my pain. Her caring love is like an infinite amount of countless MPs .

This is the Best Quiz Evah!!!!

2006-02-11T07:49:00.000-08:00

You are a maniac killer.
It doesn't matter who they are and what they
have or haven't done. You still want to kill
them. And for a simple reason only; it's fun.
Seeing people in pain is like ecstasy. Maybe
you have some sort of mental problems or you
are this way because of previous deep scars,
only you know. But now you are sadistic and
maybe you only like to see a special group of
people be in pain (e.g. preps). However you
are not the most social person in the bunch
and people think you are weird. That bothers
you somewhat but atleast you can entertain
yourself with daydreaming about killing them.
After all, they have no idea what's coming.

Main weapon: Explosives and torture

equpiment
Quote: "Insanity: a perfect

rational adjustment to an insane world"

- R.D. Lang
Facial expression: Wicked smile

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
brought to you by Quizilla

Twilight Embrace

2006-02-03T13:34:00.000-08:00

Twilight Embrace - Dawn of Journey's End

Agian the same as before, I don't feel like making a long one so this will be rief and short.

My older Ate came in for a surprise visit, sadly she will be leaving agian soon and it's only been a week or so since she arrived. She recommends me to look for cheaper Dsl. I'm think of Kez's idea on Globe's broadband, this may so my RO abit, might risk of having lags too.

I had a good number of people to help me today, including a wiz who I just boosted to 99, offered me to leech but sadly it was to laggy for him to continue,not to worries though, I have a good number of other hutners and wizards and if I'm lucky, a GC sader to niffle.I wish I had a char to help party with Eri's priest, oh well maybe Taranae can help her in my stead, she needs some inspiration whilst Eri I think needs perhaps Spiritual support. Hmmm...

I calculated my exp rate, a decent good one would be 14% per day but I think I underestinated x5 factor (and the adiktus of my partymates :P) I might get it around perhaps on monday or even Sunday! XD

Well that's all I can think of for now! Bye!

Twilight Embrace

2006-01-25T23:09:00.000-08:00

Twilight Embrace - a glimmer of hope

I don't really feel like making a blog but I suppose I owe it to anyone reading here, everything is ok between me and Chy, infact we might go to Ein later tonight to boost her. I recommend her BS though. My default savewould be in Juno though, the all around warp is back, not as a kafra but as a nother npc between the airship npc and the hypnotists. Regardless of where our destination will be, it will always be 1200z!

On a real life look, last night we had a flood but fortunately it's not too high and it only stayed at the back of our house. Mom is on constant worry on our budget, I'm having high doubts she will pay the DSL, I'll give it a month at most. Sometime in the future I will be taking a review course agian to Genetics. I hope there's money in Corel and Photoshop for being such a good designer, now if I can only get past that programming stuff.

My baby needs to eat her carrots! Please help me find a way, I already tried juices, won't work! I tried threatening her to take her sweets and goodies but she counters back into starving!! Ah the joys (and pains) of motherhood ^^;

Posted another in Twisted hearts. What would you if your best friend gets the Valentine from your boyfriend?

Twilight Embrace

2006-01-19T06:37:00.000-08:00

Twilight Embrace - Stars fade into Darkness

Today I feel like the stupidest (if not selfish) person in the world! Iwent into a DBfest party becuase I felt sooo good only to be felt like a used walking pot, the guys didn't even bother how was I feeling or even left some loots for me. When they saw me crying they thought it was because GR didn't show up and we had only a few branches to go?! I don't owe these guys an explaination.

I later gotten into a fight with a friend by ending up cussing her for stupid reasons about yestereday (read previous blog it has something to do with that). She didn't even want to believe I said that either and I'm not surprised since I'm not my usual self. I happened to cuss her for selfish stupid reasons, like I was alone suffering from breathing yesterday but she was on seige so she couldn't hear me out; neither of them could. I should've known better but I guess I couldn't swallow that fact so I threw myself into anger. Stupid human emotions, I'd glady trade them for a better sense of logic like Symm. I don't care if I don't care...at least no one has to get hurt from what I say either. Damn why couldn't I be so omnipotent? I apologized to my friend but I don't think she will talk to me, let alone keep up our friendship because she was so irrirtated from what I said. She had alot of reasons too as well especially when she just wanted to socialize and she was even concerned about me but noooooooooo.......... I had to damn shove it in her face! If that wasn't bad enough, I had to go bitter with Eri as well! *Sigh* I guess I was better off hyperventilating and if I'm lucky, I'll die from suffocation.

Well since I'm sooo frsutrated and throwing rants right now, I might as well add that I'm quite annoyed at everyone in their blogs has a map coded layout and as for me, I had to start from scratch!! Also I had to do stupid document from my mom that seemed simple enough but I actually had to make a PERFECT XEROX COPY of it actually! wasted it about 3 papers! ARGH! can't I ever make one of her documents done right in just one trial?!? Gargh! I lost my drive to make Twisted Hearts after that!! I feel so stupid!!

It's not a complete loss though, I get to had fun with Jade on YM and saw her blog. Found a MP3 that could help me last in a MP longer, better too since my personality suddenly went from quite to nice. The song kinda made me forget about the botters, the selfishness and lamers of RO. The only thing mattered was we we had one common goal: To fight and defeat the forces of evil. It also made me think of RTA and my onw RTA version fic. I know it sounds lame and too classically heroic but sure helps me pass the time. I will have to make that RTA fic sometime. Also had a party with a Paladin, I told him that I had a fight recently so everything went easy and ok for awhile, even though he died at one point, the guy was even a level higher than me. That's about the only good stuff I guess. I must be falling apart from my old self...I feel like staring at a broken mirror.

Twilight Embrace

2006-01-17T16:06:00.000-08:00

Twilight Embrace

Yesterday didn't turn out as I expected. In RO, I started the day hoping to find a party since my friends will probably busy or getting up but maybe we can have a bash later. There was none so I had solo it for quite a while. I ended making a magni party around 11 am. Lasted about 8 hours of magni, though there were some strange log in errors at that time. I met Eri later who was using Kez's account and a big surprise, Newbie was back OL! Eri toldme Kez was sick today. We chatted and spammed for awhile in south pront, talking casually and telling how 'gay' Rizan was! XD

A DBfest was bound to happen, as usual. Kez needs to regain some exp bad. I find it quite so unfair on the wedding skills; how come Kez's Sage who is waaaay lower in HP and SP than me give better score amounts to me than I could with him? And wtf?! he only consumes 10% of them while I had to get a freakin 15%?! Men.... ~_~

I thought we could've spent more time afterwards when I had my dinner but turns out it was seige day. As usual, Tara and Eri had to go to seige. Strange I don't see much people OL that day. I was left alone to myself and went back to my old magni routine. Other than Eri and Newbie, no one else seem to came OL. *sigh*

I don't know what happened next but I had to suddenly quit my magni party because I had a hard time breathing, not to mention my arms were feeling like weights. I must've fell asleep after that.

I woke up later at night probaly around 4 or 3am, went back to the old magni place only to find no one was there. I met Krizia or rather his pilot, and we talked for awhile then decided to go to GH castle. When we entered though we were greeted by 3 abysmmals and a horde of raydrics and wandermans. I did what I could to keep Krizia alive, she got away alright but I had to pay the -1% for her.

Ended up having to respawn and get back in after observing the abyssmals' movements while I was dead. There was a good opening and I barely got out alive. Tried to rally with Krizia but I kept being kidnapped by wandermans O_o. I finally reached her and she was in a critical HP state. Worked on back to regain exp (only a 0.1% dufference), had some great loots and talked about the upcoming Ein patch but the best part was the only lamer bot there was one single Assassin Cross who was a bigger chicken then Yuki's grand pecopeco. Krizia's pilot said they would help me get to transcend but I told them I wasn't all in for the high and besides I don't want to be the only trans alone.

We later did some forges and then we parted ways since he had to sleep afterwards. I continued to solo abit in prisons, met a clown there and MPed for awhile with him but I had to leave to check my stuff before maintence. Now I'm off to continue writing twisted hearts!

Twilight Embrace

2006-01-16T16:40:00.000-08:00

Twilight Embrace

Well, both Anda and Symm gave me tips about the map codes but I'll have to work on it later. Another holiday fic struck and inspired me! It's called Twisted Hearts and I posted it in WA or aka Writer's Arcadia. You can find the site by clicking the linkie on the lower left. To Jade and everyone who was waiting for me last night: Sorry I fell asleep while waiting for my mom to finish using the CR, my dad must have turned off the PC for me, I will try to make up to you guys somehow.

I sooo miss Clia! I have something to give her too! ^o^
Everyone tells me Jade seems to have a problem though, I wish I could figure out what it is. I hope nothing bad happened in the retreat.

I seem to have some psychological problem as well, maybe it was what a friend mentioned. I was helping a couple of players in RO but I seemed to be bitter at looking into them. The other one was nice but one made me feel like I'm being used and cheesed up. Maybe I am being so insecure of myself that I'm seem to take things the wrong way. Why I am insecure that I just do not know, maybe it's just naturally hard to trust other pRO players or even people in the net but something tells me it's much more.

On other notes, I have distinguished perhaps 3 kinds of writing styles I used.

The simplistic - usually for a quick reply in RPs since most of the RPmates I met are more into quick replies than an indepth post even in a fight scene; kinda makes you look like a newb but it's decent actually. I kinda miss the RPs back in Dominion boards and Avariel.net whenever I make these.

The comical - I often had hard time balancing common sense with this.

The epic - my serious writing style, chuck full of (over) descriptions. I'm not surprised if new RPers will get lost when reading into this. Those who are experienced will however get to work up their picturesque. This is the experience I learned RPing in Dominion and Avariel. All hail Lel! XD

Sometimes I use only one per post, sometimes I tend to mix them. I need to juggle which of which should be appropriate. Epic can be the best but often it fries my brain. @_@

In Twisted Hearts I'm probably mixing the later two.

More adds

2006-01-13T12:40:00.000-08:00

Added some links for testing net traffic, feels soooo good to use my little know-how on classic html programming agian! There's been alot of new stuff added lately or maybe I just forgotten them, like DIV code. The DIV basically stands for Logical Divison, in other words another means of aligning stuff on your site other than align left, right, center and justify commands which are more too specific. DIV is more manual and I think you need about 4 inputs (x, -x, y ,-y or aka left,right,top, bottom). DIV's are not not tbale so they don't or probably have a transparent background (hence I can not add a filler!) but they do seem to have a border. You can however still use the specific alignments (except maybe center)..if you're just damn lazy! like me :P

Lol, I'm starting to sound like Symmie!

I checked also the blogs of my other friends. They seem to be using the CCS codes (probably by dreamweaver's help) and I noticed when I use my mouse pointer it turns into a crosshair. I like my simple arrow pointer thank you very much (besides it'll be hardtospot in my pointer in my blog considering the whole place is black! XD) but what I like to have is that fancy 'switch' command that allows you to switch to various pages, without having to leave the main page or even scrolling for that matter. May need to ask Symmie how to work this out.

Also how make comments on yur posts visible and also a visitors count? maybe add a bgm too? :3

Improved looks

2006-01-12T14:20:00.000-08:00

Don't have much time cuz blogspot will do a maintainence soon

Sad I had to kill the Snow Angel but now I got the good background for my theme and found a new angel too! Hmm...I don't like the idea of pink but it's going well with the fonts anyway, pink and violet always seems to associate each other so well. Also made other darker colors and shades but...layout is still the same! >_<

Note to Self: Need to ask Anda or other Bloggers on how to work with layout, scrolling can be abit tiring and I'm lazy! haha!

Also, I need to credit where I get the angel pics and blogskin from.

I'll leave the winter linkie in the nottom left corner untouched as a tribute mermory to Snow angel.

First login Entry: on Friday the 13th!

2006-01-12T11:29:00.000-08:00

A little help here? Ok I'm exaggerating, I need alot of help! ~0~

Just started the site and currently tweaking with it. All this empty white space makes me wanna put something in there! I needmore dark colors, but I can't risk some things to mess up!. It would be handy if I could seperate the data on my table to the left and save some space by making up other htms whitout having to move from the BM. The left table needs a filler too in the background cuz when I tried adding background images in the BM, the text just fades out (cuz I use a black background). Might try tweaking with the font colors. Could be a helpful also if I can post my fics and some of my works around here too. And Weeeee!!! I'm must really lucky today! *coughs at the date* . Anyway, welcome tomy blog,please be reminded maintaining your health is your own responsibility! ^,..,^

Edit: On second thought, the time in blog is different from where I'm from ^^a